Wile E. Coyote

2/21/11...Although in the last few weeks The Toil has been energizing in a learning sense, this last week has been difficult. This is why. A while back, I wrote in my book that our lives seem to mimic Wile E Coyote. At the most inopportune times on our walk, we seem to continually blow ourselves up. Thus was my last week at work. After feeling God's divine hand in my life so clearly over these last few weeks, and enjoying  my time in meditation and prayer, I literally blew myself up at work. I let the stresses of work affect how I talked to someone. In fact it was enough that this person had to come to my office, close the door, and tell me so. Talk about making me feel like an inch tall. Yes there were some extenuating circumstances, but the bottom line is I failed to glorify God with my tongue. This person forgave me after I gave an apology, but still I am incredulous at how I sometimes seem to blow myself up at the most inopportune times, and thus either lose a potential testimony to my Father in heaven or worse yet derail my relationship with Him because of my deep rooted flaws. Grace is never more evident in these situations. I wish I was growing more Christlike in my walk but the sad truth is the longer I am on this journey, the more I realize I need grace on a daily basis. Without the forgiveness of grace, I have no hope in this life.